When Karma Strikes, it’s Payback Time…

Sometimes I wanted to die and thought of committing suicide… I guess 99.99% of brokenhearted people say that and I think 50% of them mean what they said… If it’s not just a sin to commit it, if it’s not against the commandments of God… I know it’s too over to think that way but I guess brokenhearted people just wanted to escape or to get over with the feeling that’s why they have thought of it…

Writing is all that I could do to somewhat release my emotions and ease the pain but I guess it’s just 1% effective... but there’s nothing more that I could do…

I have a lot of what ifs in my mind right now… If I will be given a chance to turn back time, I would never do what I have done… I would stay away from him (M), that way I have spared my heart from being hurt and haven’t hurt the only guy who ever loved me. But we cannot undo the past; we cannot change what has been already done… I know what I did had caused him pain and I really regret doing those crazy things. I really thought I loved him (M) but just last month I’ve realized and have thought that it wasn’t love that I feel for him… I used to think that I do really love him but I guess I was just lonely of him (P) not being here with me. So the attention, love and care (which I thought was real) that (P) should have been doing but was so busy with his work and family that he had just taken me for granted, (M) had filled the emptiness I have felt… But things didn’t work well between (M) and me, he was just one of those jerks who plays with women’s emotions and left them when they found someone new. Yeah, he (M) left me for some other girl… So sad but instead of learning on that experience, I have been so stubborn, maybe because I have this thought in mind… thought of having revenge for what he had done, so I still entertain his messages and continue to communicate with him. Later I have found out that the girl he liked already had a boyfriend and they didn’t end up as what he expected them to be… I should have let that go and should have stopped thinking of revenge but I don’t know why I am so stubborn, and because of that I have fallen in his traps again… In the end I am still the loser… Sometimes I wonder why I let those things happen, gave him (M) another chance to hurt me again, instead of me hurting him… Ayan! For those who are thinking of revenge, it really wouldn’t do you any good…

Then came (P) to the rescue… he still wants me back after what had happened, he was willing to wait for me to heal my wounds and hoping for me to love him back… and I did learned to love him back… I guess I never really stopped loving him I was just too stubborn to see it, and maybe because of what he makes me feel when he was so busy and has no time for me, that I thought I had fallen out of love…

Things went well… I was back to my normal self again, no more crying moments at night and my heart was finally healed with P’s help. He did really change and make the most for the time we we’re apart. I do miss those times and have thought of what I did, regretting what I have done… I know it was hard for him too and I did really hurt him, though I really don’t want to hurt him at that time because somehow he had been a part of my life and he’s still special…

Months had passed and I was so convinced that he (P) was really the one for me… the one that He chose for me to be with in my life… I guess I rely too much on those signs that have been laid upon me (When I Almost Believed in Signs)… Then came to a time when he (P) had found someone else… It was so hard to accept…. I thought he was just getting back for what I had done but I know him too well to do that… It was like a bomb that explodes too soon... no warnings… and it hurts so much… Sometimes I wish this was just all a dream and when I wake up we’re still together and happy… I tried not to give up and still hoped to get us back to what we used to be… hoping he still has a tiny little bit of feeling for me… I have tried to embrace all the pain just to win him back… asked for some chance… I know this was so unlike me, I haven’t done this to (M)… masokista na nga cguro ako… but I really do love him… but he chose not to give our relationship a chance anymore… he just sees me as a friend now… a best friend… It was so painful and so hard to accept…

The pain he had caused was more that what had (M) did… He (P) was so mad at (M) for what he had done to me… but now, they’re just the same… they all leave me for another girl… though I refuse to believe but that’s the truth… it was so unlike him but I guess people do really change, I now remember the saying “There is no permanent thing in this world except CHANGE…” My self esteem dropped down again and I always asked myself if I was not worthy to be loved… If what was wrong with me for them to leave me just like that… A lot of questions, no answers…

My heart’s been badly broken and now I really don’t know where to start again, where to hold or hang on for me to bear all this pain and move one… I don’t have anyone to talk to… to let this pain out except talking to HIM… I don’t want my family to know… My mom kept on asking me about him asked me to invite him this coming Christmas because they (my sister’s family, brother and her) will spend Christmas here… I really tried to hold back my tears and tried not to ‘piyok’ as I speak, trying to act as normal as I could...my eyes was so from crying last night , I just hope she had no idea or what… I don’t want them to know and I don’t want their perception on him to change… they liked him a lot for me… even my best friends do…

I guess the Golden rule “Do unto others as you don’t want others to do unto you” is not a rule to be taken for granted… It’s really hard when it will be done to you too… I know the feeling now… so I would think twice before doing crazy things again… If ever you have thought of trying to two-time or cheat with your special someone, you should think twice, or thrice or more… think of what if your love one will do that to you too… it would be too hard, I know… because that is what I am feeling now… I know life must go on but sometimes I wanted to feel numb for me not to feel all this pain… it’s really like there’s something sharp that keeps on stabbing my heart… And all that I can do is just cry… cry it all out ‘til I thought I had no more tears to cry on but it won’t just stop and I just can’t control it…

It’s so hard to hide the pain and sadness that I feel… I just wish I could overcome this obstacle and live normally again… though I am almost giving up… but still try to be strong…. I hope I can make it…

I hope he would realize what he has done and hope that he would not do what he did to me to that girl, if they would end up together… I still wish him to be happy and hope that that someone would love him as much as I do love him… Even if it hurts to think that way… Hay….

I think I would never love again this way… I keep on saying that I will never love again, how I wish it’s that easy…I’ll try not to… Well, as what had happened I think it would be too hard for me to trust again… hay…. I know this is all the payment for all that wrong things that I have done… Just one wrong move… and it haunts me like forever…

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If I were a boy

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I like this song, nice pati lyrics... ka-relate din... Wala lang, just wanna share lang... Hoping to send the song's message to all the boys out there who just take their girlfriends for granted..

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wated
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I could turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

(Chorus)

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

(Chorus)

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy

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What About Love?

What if I took my time to love you?
What if I put no one above you?
What if I did the things
That really mattered?
What if I ran through
Hoops of disaster?

No one would care if
We never made it
We're in this alone
So why don't we face it
There is no room to
Blame one another
We just need time to
Forgive each other

[Chorus:]
What about love?
What about feeling?
What about all the things that make life worth living?
What about faith?
What about trust?
And tell me baby...what about us?

How can I give this
Love a new beginning?
How can I stop the rain?
It's never ending
How do I keep my soul believing?
Memories of how we
Should be keep calling

[Chorus]

I'll take the rivers rise
I'll take the happy times
I'll take the moments of disaster

[Chorus]

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When I almost believed in SIGNS

A few months ago, I was so determined to find my one true love, my destiny (corny noh? pero true)... I keep on praying and asking Him for signs... I wasn't really that desperate though, at that time I just want to be sure of a certain situation and wanted to know if it is really right to still stay into that situation. So I asked for a sign from Him.

After a few weeks... months... I've already forgotten about it and just went on with my life. But just this month, on my birthday, I received a gift from him. It was a necklace and a bracelet with a big heart pendant. This is not the first time he had given me presents but what surprised me was when I have looked intently at the pendant, there's an angel in it... I paused for a while... looked again at the pendant and see the same thing... then I smiled, asked to no one in particular, Is this for real? Is this the answer I was really looking for? I was happy at that moment and excited. I asked him why he chose to gave me that gift and he answered he liked it the first time he saw it and that that Angel was him, saying: I am that Angel, I will be guiding and protecting you... I was really touched by those words... and happy... to finally have known who my Angel is. He didn't know how much I wanted to hug him and show him how much I appreciate him.

I didn't told him about it until now... He didn't even know that I asked for it and told no one about it... So I was really amazed and of course happy at that time... I was so excited and told one of my best friend and sister about it... They were happy for me and because they liked him for me...

But weeks later, things were different already, I know something was wrong but I just thought he might just be busy at work. Then I've known he ***** somebody else... I was really hurt by what I've found out... Just when I finally have gotten over the past and learned to love him back, these things have had happened... Just when I thought I have found my Angel... Or was it just a prank sign? I am beginning to question those signs which I thought are true... I don't know if this is one of His challenge or test or I don't know anymore... All I know is that I am hurt and I don't want to believe in Signs anymore....

I don't care if you would happen to read this or not, I just want to tell you: "What are those words you have promised for if you would just turn back and walk away... You shouldn't have said those words if in the long run you would just hurt and leave me alone... You shouldn't have asked me to give you another chance... you shouldn't have asked.... and then you expect us to be best of friends? Nah... I don't think that would happen...

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Pacquiao - De La Hoya Fight

There's no doubt, the Pacquiao - De La Hoya Fight will be the biggest boxing match of the year! The fight is already set as both camp has agreed on a Welterweight bout which will be on December 6 at the MGM Grand in Las Vegas. This will be the final grand match of 35 year old Oscar dela Hoya who will fight Manny 'Pacman' Pacquiao at 147 pounds. De La Hoya has advantages over Pacman in terms of the 6-inch reach and the 4-inches height advantage.

Pacquiao, 29, the most celebrated and recognized athlete in the Philippines, has won titles at five lower weights and is more comfortable around 136-140 pounds. De La Hoya has won multiple titles and is more comfortable around 154.

De La Hoya will take a record of 39-5 with 30 knockouts into the fight. Pacquiao’s record is 47-3-2, with 35 knockouts. [Source]

Who will win? Our very own Manny Pacquiao or Mexico's Golden Boy OscarDe la Hoya?

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PhotoMIAHgraphy up and Live!

Yup! Finally, my wish to have my own domain for my PhotoBlog has been made into reality! (Char!) Check it out guys! By the way, I wanted to thank Ronel of Awatiro and Pangitster for helping me with those tricks and for setting up mys site, wehehe...

I really love to take photos of any kind, as long as it captures my attention. My next wish is to have my own Camera, a DSLR perhaps (nangarap nanaman, hahaha!). Hmmm... My Photos are not that great, but I hope you could appreciate it all. If you want to exchange links with my new PhotoBlog, just leave me a message after you've added me and I will add you asap... Thanks! :) Have fun viewing my photos at PhotoMIAHgraphy!

"Live life to the fullest"

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Sylmar Fire Destroys 600 Mobile Homes

With hundreds of homes damaged or destroyed in Los Angeles County, Gov. Arnold Schwarzenegger declared a state of emergency this morning as hurricane-like wind gusts continued to drive a raging wildfire across a large swath of the northern San Fernando Valley.

Evacuees from a mobile home park near Sylmar had their fears realized at a midmorning briefing by Los Angeles Fire Capt. Steve Ruda.

"Prepare yourselves for the worst," he told the crowd of about 200, using a megaphone.

About 600 of the 700 mobile homes in the area were destroyed, he said. He described devastated roadways, melted street signs and fire hoses scorched into the pavement in the Oakridge Park mobile home development. Evacuees sobbed as he held up a charred and tattered American flag salvaged from the community by firefighters, who Ruda said pulled sleeping residents from their beds to rush them to safety on firetrucks.

Suggesting that the fire may have been intentionally set, the Los Angeles Police Department today sealed off the mobile home park and declared it a crime scene.

The evacuees at Sylmar High School were among 10,000 residents were ordered from their homes as hundreds of firefighters used water-dropping helicopters, bulldozers and engines from across the Southern California to try to halt the erratic march of the Sylmar blaze as it hopscotched west and south toward thousands of homes.

By late morning, additional fires were burning in Brea, Rancho Palos Verdes and near Yorba Linda. A fire in Corona, where evacuations were ordered, destroyed or damaged at least seven homes.

In addition, a fire that began Thursday night in Santa Barbara County, destroying more than 100 homes, was only 40% contained this morning. Fire officials there warned that the Tea fire continued to threaten about 1,500 homes, and many neighborhoods remained under mandatory evacuation orders.

At the same time, the so-called Sayre fire -- which began about 10:30 p.m. Friday in Sylmar -- had scorched more than 2,600 acres. Authorities had no estimate of when even partial containment could be expected.

The major traffic corridors converging near the Sayre fire -- Interstates 5 and 210 and State Highway 14 -- were shut down as it jumped the freeways.

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To take a look at the Sylmar Fire Map

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A Bloggers Life

Blogging… I admit I am hooked up with this; it’s not just a hobby anymore. Who wouldn’t be, if you can make money out of it while enjoying… Out of what you like to do… Blogging is also my means of easing my anger, irritation, happiness, and all… I write what I feel… The computer is my best friend and the sole witness to all that had been happening in my life, well not really all but almost, since I write everything that comes to my mind. Blogging… Not all people understand what it’s all about or what it could do to someone… For me it’s already a part of my life… For three or four months of serious blogging I have come across different blogs too, made friends through them virtually. I talk more to those people a lot more than the ones around me… share my deepest thoughts and some not so deep ones… Created a bond that I know wouldn’t last that long but still tried to… It’s so hard to explain but it’s what makes me happy, I guess some bloggers out there would agree with me on this (crossing fingers, LOL).

I started my blog as a personal diary, though I just posted a few entries online because some of my thoughts are written in an old notebook of mine. But as you can see now, my blog (MeiYah’s thought’s, ideas, experiences, dreams, actions, roll into one…) has a lot of Ads on the sidebar, middle post and everywhere. Most of my entries are paid post. I don’t have any regrets or whatsoever that I am now monetizing this blog. I gain something from it though it’s not as much as the other Pro Bloggers out there are making but for me it is one thing that I never thought could’ve had happen.

My best friend and ex-boyfriend are the influences of this hobby… At first I just said: “Okay, I will make a blog”, but will just forget about it the day after. Signed up a Blog and forget about it, then months had passed and I never thought I had an empty blog running online with no post! LOL. Because I was busy with work back then… Months had been slipping away and I decided to quit from my job. Lots of reasons…

I started monetizing my blog when I had no more source of income… I don’t want to ask money from my family, I am too ashamed to ask… So I started to sign up to those paid to post sites and whatever paid to sites there is. A month had passed and I rarely had a task opportunity… I just had $12.00 which came from Smorty, for making 2 paid posts. That was the very first payment I receive online. I remember I was happy at the time I receive a message from Paypal about my very first funds. I never really thought that I could make money online just by writing. Before, I used to hear and see posts about making money online but I never believed it. But now, things change, I am now one of those people who are making money online by means of blogging. Never have I thought that I would be doing this, really. LOL. I am not a good writer, that’s what I always say to Rhon. Actually she’s the good one, I admire her writings and I am a fan of her blog, but that was before, she rarely had time to blog now. Thanks for introducing me to the blogging world!

I am making money online but it’s not that much… So I accepted some offers and tasks sent to my email and it somehow helped. I used to have zero tasks before but after a few months, my tasks are lining up (kapuliki lagi ko!). Some of the tasks had expired already (saying din). But thanks some of my sponsors, for giving those task opportunities. I am happy with what I received online… No one would give me a dime here for just sitting in front of the computer and write…

But Blogging is not just about earning money, I know... Still, a lot are signing up for a blog to earn money online and that the real essence of what blogging all about had been lost. Can't blame the others for thinking that way, I myself is one among the thousands out there who had been making money out of blogging. Well, it's your blog, as long as you never stepped on anyone's foot, as long as you enjoy what you're doing, there's nothing wrong with making money online. You can do whatever you wanted to do with your blogs, and they can say whatever they wanted to say but it's still you who will be making a choice. NO ONE can dictate you on what you would do, unless you let them.

What are you waiting for? Make Money or Advertise with Blogsvertise now!

My Blog Earnings...

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Of Heartbeats and Headphones

The threat posed to your pacemaker by your iPod may have been downplayed by no less than the Food and Drug Administration, but that doesn’t mean that you can go listen to your music willy-nilly. The player itself might be harmless, but perhaps you’re forgetting about that most dangerous of accessories—the headphone.

Not silent... but deadly!

According to a researcher at the Medical Device Safety Institute at Beth Israel Medical Center in Boston, the magnets in headphones can affect pacemakers or implanted defibrillators. (Note that the risk is posed by headphones and not digital music players in general or the iPod in particular, as some inattentive headline writers would suggest.)

Before you toss out your potentially deadly heaphones, note this particular detail about the Medical Device Safety Institute report: for headphones to affect pacemakers, they need to be held very close to the device in question—namely, right over the heart. So, in other words, don’t keep your earbuds in your front shirt pocket.

“I certainly don’t think people should overreact to this information,” [said study leader Dr. William Maisel] but it’s smart to keep small electronics at least a few inches from implanted medical devices, and not let someone wearing headphones lean against your chest if you have one, he said.

“The headphone interaction applies whether or not the headphones are plugged in to the music player and whether or not the music player is on or off,” he added.

So there you have it—if you’ve got a pair of headphones, exercise some degree of caution with where you keep your earbuds, but don’t let the news put a stop to your tunes.

[Article Source] by Dan Moren, Macworld.com

The following article is excerpted from MacUser.com

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Mga Kabuang ni Miah

"Live life to the fullest"

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Goals Obtained

I have an entry about my earnings online from different sources in my previous post. When I first start doing paid post I wasn't earning that much, it took me four months (I guess?) to have accumulated a hundred bucks on my PayPal account. That wasn't easy... I almost gave up but then I've set a goal for myself. That I will try to work on my site, trying to optimize it even though I really don't know how to (LOL). I will try to accumulate $100.00 in just a month. I wasn't really sure I'm going to make it because I rarely have opportunities to grab. But all my late night's work were paid off and I have finally obtained my very first blogging goal (LOL). I have accumulated a $100 (something) for the month of October! Yippeee!! I know this is so shallow for others who are earning twice, thrice or even more than what I have just earned, but this is an achievement for me already. Hahaha... I thought I'm not going to make it.

Thanks to Blogsvertise, I think 90% of what I earned are from the opportunities I got from them and the others are from ReviewMe and SponsoredReviews. How I wish the opportunities will never end and that I won't slack off. I get tired sometimes and would not blog, some opps are just canceled by the advertisers because I wasn't able to finish it on the desired date. Sayang din. But sometimes it's really tiring to stay in front of the computer. We need a break too once in awhile, to breathe and get along with other stuffs other than blogging. Agree?

Well, I haven't received some of the payments yet, I just calculated it. Hahaha.. But they do pay ha. Hmmm... What would be my next goal? How about $200 in a month? Nyaikz! Kaya ko kaya yun? Whew! Maybe if the prices of the opps that I can grab are higher? Hahaha... Well, let's just wait and see...

I want to learn SEO too... Hmmm... someday... I know I will (lakas ng fighting spirit! ahaha). If dili tamadon, LOL!

For those who want a Text Link Advertising or whatever, contact me now! I have a PR3 Travel Blog, PR2 Newbie Blog, PR4 PhotoBlog or even in my no PR Blogs but has high Alexa rankings and traffic...

Hambugera? Dili man... Mas okay kasi ang Text Link Advertisement dili maka-nosebleed. So far I just have 2 text link ads, hoping for more to come.... Hahaha... (pamugas na ni!)

"Live life to the fullest"

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YouTube To Add New Full-Length Shows To Boost Its Revenue

Popular video-sharing Web site YouTube takes a new step in its quest to boost the company’s advertising revenue. The plan to show full-length television shows and films will now also include Metro Goldwyn Mayer’s archives, in addition to the content from other networks. Google, YouTube’s owner, has been searching for several months for a good strategy to take its earnings to the next level.

The first show scheduled for release on YouTube is MGM’s American Gladiators TV series, but even though it used to be rather entertaining and attract quite a crowd, the show is more than 10 years old and it will need some back up in order for the new program to properly take off. Among the movies expected to become available on the Web site’s channels are The Magnificent Seven, Bulletproof Monk and also clips from movies such as Legally Blonde. The movies will be viewable for free, as the company relies on advertising. Each video will feature ads in different formats, from video to banners.

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Things Money Can't Buy

Things MONEY Can't BUY

MONEY can buy...

A bed, but not a SLEEP,
Books, but not BRAINS,
Food, but not APPETITE,
Finery, but not BEAUTY,
A house, but not a HOME,
Medicine, but not HEALTH,
Luxuries, but not CULTURE,
Amusement, but not HAPPINESS,
Companions, but not FRIENDS,
Flattery, but not RESPECT.

"Live life to the fullest"

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Zenni was featured on FOX news

Been reading the news online and guess what, Zenni Optical was on FOX news! Zenni has gone a long way when it comes to selling Great Eyeglasses For Less. There are Variable Dimension Frames From Zenni that you can choose from depending on your style and character, from single vision lens, sunsensor (potochromic) lens, tinted sunglasses lens, bifocal lens and progressive lens.

Zenni on Fox video can be found here.

By the way, this looks like the one I am wearing now:

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Venus, Jupiter Set to Unite, Light Up The November Sky

Hollywood (dbTechno) - The two brightest planets, Venus and Jupiter, are set to unite and light up the November sky.

The two planets will continue to get closer and closer to each other the more the month of November goes on.

According to researchers, they will be 30 degrees away from each other at the start of the month.

As the month goes on though, it is believed that they are only going to be around 2 degrees apart.

This means that they will be coming together to create quite a light show up in space.

Venus will be setting at anywhere from 8 p.m. to 9 p.m. throughout November, while Jupiter will be setting around 10 p.m. at the start of the month, and end at around 9 p.m. by the month’s end.

[Source]

Way back in High School, i used to go up on our roof and watch the stars at night... It makes me relax and unwind from the stress at school (kayo ba naman gina-bully lage, tks3...). Hhhmmm... I would really want to see this, can someone out let me borrow their telescope for just one night? *sigh*

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China official says tainted eggs "isolated" case

BEIJING (AP) — China's agriculture minister has called the discovery of melamine-tainted eggs "isolated cases," but urged continued scrutiny over the animal feed industry to ensure food safety.

In remarks posted on the ministry Web site late Sunday, Minister Sun Zhengcai said that "very few batches of eggs from very few companies" contained the chemical melamine.

Calling them "isolated cases," he nevertheless said the Agriculture Ministry's departments "should pay high attention" to the feed quality to ensure the safety of eggs and other animal products, and protect farmers' interests.

Sun made the remarks during a trip to a farm in Dingxing county in northern Hebei Sunday.

Last week, four brands of Chinese eggs were found to be contaminated with melamine, and agriculture officials speculated that the cause was adulterated feed given to hens. No illnesses have been linked to melamine in eggs.

Other ministry officials have asserted that the practice of deliberately adding melamine to animal feed was widely practiced, signaling that melamine contamination may be more widespread than in just baby formula and dairy products.

Inspectors have destroyed 3,682 tons of animal feed that was tainted with the chemical. Commonly used in plastics and fertilizers, melamine is high in nitrogen, which registers as high protein levels in routine tests of food and feed.

Infant formula tainted with the chemical has been blamed for sickening tens of thousands of children and causing the deaths of four infants.

Though experts say at low levels it does not pose a risk to human health, higher concentrations of melamine harm the kidneys.

Over the weekend, Agriculture Ministry official Wang Zhicai said that inspection teams have descended on feed makers nationwide in a "punishment" campaign to ferret out those found using excessive amounts of the chemical melamine.

Among the 250,000 feed-makers and animal breeding farms inspected, inspectors found more than 500 engaged in illegal or questionable practices, with police further investigating 27 companies, Wang said. He likened the behavior of some of the companies to organized crime, calling them "black nests of gangsters."

China has struggled to appear responsive to a widening food scandal. In the nearly two months since the government first acknowledged that melamine contaminated the milk supply, the chemical has been detected in eggs, candy and other products. Its presence in feed raises fears about the safety of meat and fish.

A little more than a year ago, China vowed to minimize the use of melamine after it was found in pet food exports that killed dogs and cats in North America in 2007.

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